Month One Progress

YES!

I have made progress!

 

More than I was expecting or had hoped for!

 

I was kind of surprised the other day when I decided to take a few measurements because I was feeling a little difference in my midsection and my lovely sister mentioned how much slimmer my face looked and told me "you can see your dimples better" Ha!

 

Well She was right my face has slimmed down...I had noticed but was waiting to see if other people would notice too. I have actually lost 8 lbs since I started! I am still only planning on one to one and a half pounds per week so the 8 lbs this month is definitely motivation.

 

 

I fell off the 30 Day Shred bandwagon after day 2. I was doing it while M was in her swing and it wasn't happening. She screamed the last 10 minutes the first day...making it super hard to concentrate and finish. The second day she screamed for about 15 minutes. Ya. No way I can do that. The plan is to get her sleeping in her crib for her morning nap and doing 30 DS while shes up there. I am going to wait until C starts school next week so we can get back into some sort of routine. For now I am doing my elliptical for 20-25 minutes every morning and then doing strength stuff later during afternoon nap. Planks are my number one challenge right now. I am trying to work towards being able to hold it for 2 minutes! Planks are tough...especially since I'm pretty weak and out of shape. I am trying to get used to some burpees too. Both of those are pretty full body exercises.

 

Since I stopped and didn't do the 30 DS I'm kind of glad I decided to take measurements again so I could have another starting reference for inches lost doing it.

 

Here is what my measurements were the other day. I made a note in my phone.

 

 

I actually measure my neck after this and it has gone from 15 1/2 in. to 14 1/2 in.

 

`YAY for progress! I am very excited for month two progress since I really just started actually working out this last week! How many inches can I lose this month?! :)

 

Still logging on MyFitnessPal if any of you log with MFP please leave me your name so I can add you and we can help each other stay honest!

 



SOOO out of Shape & Motivation

Well. I feel like I have been neglecting to keep this as my journal.

But...Kids and family are first.

 

I have been doing well I think. As of Tuesday I have lost 7 lbs. (well, 6.9...but who cares! Lol)

I have 3 lbs until I reach my weight when I got pregnant with E! I have been thinking about some short term big goals I want to set. I think I have some pretty good ones.

 

In June the hubs and I will being going on a vacation...just the two of us....to one of my best friends destination wedding! Fun, exciting, awesome....SCARY! Lol. It is scary for me for more than a few reasons. First off I will be leaving all 3 kids. That will be a tough one. Miss M will only be 18 months. I know that seems plenty old enough...but it will be for a week! That's a long time! I think the boys will do OK...but I am still worried about them too. I have a lot of things to figure out on that front before June...but I have 10 months. Plenty of time for that. 10 Months! It's only 10 months away and I am supposed to be at a beach....in a bathing suit....AHHHH! 

 

It's OK. It's fabulous motivation to get my flabby belly toned and my floppy arms shaped up...and lift my butt where it's supposed to be...and get my thighs trimmed down so I don't get chub rub when I walk down the beach after sitting in the sand with my handsome guy.

 

 

I am actually excited for this challenge. I super excited for my friend who is getting married. I am excited they finally settled on the actual destination (they were having quite a time with it). I am excited to spend time with my friends (we were three amigos pretty much in hs) who we haven't been together in 6 years! I am excited about being a witness to another friends love and commitment to her man (this will be the 6th wedding I have been a bridesmaid in!) Good thing I'm married or I might be on my way to being like that girl in the movie 27 Dresses. Ha!

 

I have to say though. I'm pretty darn excited about a trip with my hubs. We never really had a honeymoon. I mean...we did...ish. But we went to a small little place north of our home town...and that wasn't even the plan. It was nice...and wonderful for the two days we stayed...and we made wonderful memories that we tried to share with C the few times we went there before we moved away. It was just not really a honeymoon like we both would imagine. We say all the time..."why didn't do this...or go here...or there?" We were young, in school, and poor! Now is the time! We have a perfect opportunity while we go to be with a friend to witness their love to celebrate our own! :) We will celebrate our 12th wedding anniversary less than a month before the trip! Perfect timing.

 

Anyway. A little off track...but you can see that I have a little motivation to get things done! I want to look great on the beach with my hubby. I want to get a good chunk of this weight off. I want to tone up and be able to wear a cute suit...not a mommy moomoo. I have 43 weeks! If I lose 1 lb a week I can lose 43 lbs before we leave! YES! I can do it! If I lose 43 lbs before the trip I will weigh 164. I will still have exactly 20 lbs until I reach my goal weight...but 164 by the trip would be fantastic!

 

I figured out some big short term goals this last week.

 

1. Get under 200...199! This has not happened since before our last miscarriage in 2008!
2. Lose 3 inches in my belly measurement! Hoping this will happen in 30 days when I finish my first rotation of the 30 Day Shred.
3. Finish every day of the 30 Day Shred! Today is day 2.
4. Reach 177! Random number I know. This number is significant to me because it is what I weighed the day I delivered C! Yikes! Ridiculous! How in the heck do I weigh 30lbs more today that I did when I delivered C almost 11 years ago??!!! Reality hit me when I was thinking about short term goals. This will be a big one for me. Once I reach this one I will be shopping for a goal swimsuit for the trip!

 

I am thinking I will add more short term goals as I complete these and as I think of more. I'm sure more will come up as I get closer to each goal.

 

 

As mentioned above I started the 30 Day Shred yesterday.

Ya. Um. YUCK! Lol.

I seriously thought I was going to pass out at about 15 minutes. When she said back to 2 minutes of cardio the last time I wanted to throw my 3 lb weight at the TV! HA!

In all honesty though. I made it through. I almost passed out but...I Did It! I can continue to do it because the first day should be the worst and it should be easier from here on out. If I can do it on the day I started...so incredibly out of shape...every day should get better...even if it still makes me feel like passing out...I can finish. I can hang with that crazy woman as she reminds me with every jumping jack, butt kicker, squat, push up, etc. how fat I am and why I need to get through it. It's only 20 minutes. No pain no gain!  I am actually excited to see how much all this sweat and heavy breathing changes my body. It has been way to long since I worked out and I feel good today. Sore, but good. I will keep updating my progress on this. Wish me luck!

 

 



Slow and Sick.

Well. I have been super sick the last week. Nasty cough, bright green phlegm, sore throat, body aches, ect. Blah! Needless to say I have not exercised in that time. I have not been eating bad though...and that is a big thing. I am slowly starting to feel better and hoping to get in some intense cardio this afternoon.

My main goal at the moment is to figure out a routine for getting my cardio in. I guess if I can get a couple 10 minute cardio sessions in a day I will be much better off than getting none at all! Hoping to start getting M napping in her crib upstairs for her morning nap very soon and E can exercise with me during her nap. I think he will get a kick out of jumping around with me. It will be good for both of us. C starts school in a few weeks so we will be back into some sort of routine there too. Planning on walking to and from school...at least until it starts raining too much. I don't want to count the walking as my exercise for the day though. I want to find somewhere to do some drop in classes as well. Maybe Zumba? Water Aerobics? Something! I think I need out of the house kidless for sure. Haha.

I actually lost 4 lbs. since I started. That is pretty good I guess since I am nursing. That's one thing I want to make sure I keep in mind. This WILL be slow. I cannot plan on losing more than 1 1/2 lb a week since I am still nursing. I plan on nursing until she is 2 or until she self weans...so another year and a half or there abouts. Even if I lose 1 lb a week I can still reach my goal in about 18 months. Wow. saying that seems like such a long time! It has crept on and stayed on though and I know it won't magically melt off...especially while doing it healthily and adopting a new lifestyle not fad dieting.

I need to make a few short term loss goals. I will need to think about that for awhile because I want to have a few lined up. My first goal is an easy one though. 

GET BELOW 200!

 Right now I have about 10 lbs until I reach that goal.  I will think on this a little the next few days and post again when I figure some other short term goals out.

Starting Point

OK. Here I go. 

I am at the starting point of this battle to lose these rolls once and for all.

I took my "before" pictures last night and boy is it eye opening looking at a picture of me in all my glory. With tight fitting clothes, not hiding behind my kids, not pulling my shirt just right so it will "hide" my rolls. Ha. Who was I kidding? There is no hiding this!

As hard as it is to look at these pictures and realize that I still look at least 7 months pregnant when my baby is 7 months old...it is a dose of reality.

I am not pregnant and when we were on vacation we stopped for breakfast one morning before getting back on the road and an old lady stopped me with a confused look on her face. She wanted to know how old the baby was. I told her 6 months and the look on her face was very confused. I knew what she was thinking but didn't say. I knew she was thinking she was a little young for me to be so pregnant again already. She looked at my stomach and back at my face twice. I guess looking for confirmation that she was right in her assumption. Sad thing is she was wrong because I'm not...but she definitely had reason to think so looking at how I really look in these pictures.

I guess it's easy to look in the mirror only when I have to. It's easy to look past anything but my hair and face as I put on my makeup. I really don't look into the mirror too often. Like I have a crap ton of time to make myself up every day anyway right? I guess it's not surprising that I chose to ignore the fact that even though I only gained 7 lbs while I was pregnant with Miss M, and was 20 lbs down at my 2 week Postpartum appointment, I haven't lost another pound since! Yikes. How is that possible. Nursing moms lose a ton of weight from just nursing alone right? Nope NOT true. I have never been one to lose while nursing. Even with Cameron before I was this fat. Maybe it has to do with my thyroid being all screwed up and my hormones being out of whack....but even so, It's still normal for mommas to hold onto up to 10 lbs of baby weight until they wean their babes. Well, I definitely seem to tend to hold onto about 8 lbs on average for each babe. Just another excuse, right?!

I'm done making excuses.

I'm done trying to hide.

I'm done being the fat mom.

I'm done being the fat wife.

I'm done being the fat friend.

I'm done feeling like crap.

I'm done being out of shape.

I'm done not being able to fit into any of my clothes.

I DESERVE TO FEEL BETTER!

MY KIDS DESERVE A BETTER MOM!

MY HUSBAND DESERVES A BETTER WIFE!

I WILL GET TO MY GOAL!

I WILL BE HAPPY WITH HOW I LOOK AGAIN!

I WILL BE HEALTHY!

I WILL BE A GOOD EXAMPLE TO MY KIDS!

I AM READY!

I CAN DO THIS!

GOALS:

Lose 70 Pounds

Sleep more (Be in bed by 10)

Eat healthy

Pay attention to portion sizes

Count calories (every single one!)

Keep food diary (log with myfitnesspal)

No added sugars

No soda

Exercise daily (at least 30 minutes)

Find an outdoor exercise activity that I love.

RUN (not walk) a 5k.

Drink enough water

Make sure to keep an eye on milk supply for Miss M

Get my thyroid under control with diet rather than changing medicine dosage

Journal weekly here

Keep track of progress with monthly pictures.

I have taken a ton of measurements because I plan on losing a ton of inches...and I want to see how these change. Some of the measurements are probably not normal ones people take...but I am curious.

STARTING MEASUREMENTS

Weight:214 (Ya that's a dose of reality right there too! Exactly 70 lbs heavier than when I got pregnant with Cameron)

Bust: 45 1/2 in.

Under Bust: 38 in.

Waist: 45 1/2 in.

Belly: 48 in.

Hips: 47 in.

R. Thigh: 27 1/4 in.

L. Thigh: 27 in.

R. calf: 16 3/4 in.

L. calf: 16 1/4 in.

R. arm: 14 in.

L. arm: 14 in.

Neck: 15 1/2 in.

Let's Get it Started!

OK. So, I originally "started" this blog right before we found out little miss M was on the way. I was wanting to get myself on track and keep myself honest and get myself healthy. Well, the same is still true today and now that miss M is 7 months old, I am ready to get this "show" on the road!

I plan to use this as documentation of how things are going, a food journal, exercise journal, progress journal...and hopefully eventually inspiration as I lose, tone, and see how far I've come.

 I am ,FAT, UNCOMFORTABLE, FRUSTRATED, and SO ready to be the opposite of all of these.

I plan on "baring" it all here with weight, measurements, and even pictures(YIKES!).

It WON'T be pretty!!!

I can guarantee that.

But, I have to start somewhere, and posting my fat pictures and putting it all out there for the "world" to see will help me stick with it because people will be waiting to see my progress.

Feel free to follow my journey and laugh, cry, and sweat along with me if you like.

P.S. If you have any tips for a nursing momma on keeping milk supply up, and still cutting calories, and sweating my butt (literally) off, by all means...Please Share!!!

Let the journey begin!